Some random facts about me; I hate to write. I can't spell. I never journal. So, why blog? Well, as many of you know or will soon come to know, my life has taken quite the turn in the past months. My heart is on the mends, although, will never be completely whole again. Therefore, I am constantly looking for ways to comfort this ache. Over these past months, reading other blogs exclaiming stories about life, death, random facts, daily encounters and simple pleasures, have somehow tended to my aching heart and have allowed me to experience small moments of joy. Blogging has allowed our world to capture a small (although sometimes quite large) glimpse into another ones life, creating a thrill that is addictive and slightly contagious! My blog will hopefully nurture that thrill in hopes to offer you a 'front row seat' into my journey through this crazy experience called, life. Life, in the essence of what gives, breaths and sustains. Maybe my blogging will one day attribute to caring for another ones aching heart.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

lots happening over here

Lots happening in the Bender home these days.  For someone who despises change, we are currently on change overload.  

Change #1
Starting with Eric, who (finally) began a new job in the beginning of September... a HUGE answer to prayer!  To say that last year was tough (on both Eric and I) would be an understatement.  Eric's job was not turning out the way we had hoped.  Long hours, high stress, no time for family (with a baby on the way) led to a very unhappy husband which in return led to a very unhappy wife.  Yet, in-spite of the struggle and unhappiness, I think the greatest lesson both Eric and I learned through it was the fact that we shoudlnt' be pursuing 'happiness'.  Our world says, do what makes you happy.  Yet happiness is momentary.  What if you are where God wants you to be and you are 'unhappy'?  We battled with this question for months...  yet, God was teaching us that we needed so badly to trust Him, obey, and carry on until HE changed our circumstances.  And know that if we are where He wants us, we, in return, will experience contentment and joy.   Hard to do? yes.  Trying on our marriage? yes.  Worth knowing God on a deeper level? YES.  

Change #2
I quit my job.  Bittersweet, yes.  I worked so hard to earn my masters in school counseling just  4 years ago.  When I graduated, I was so thankful to have found a job working as a high school guidance counselor at the Vanguard School.  I loved my job, despite the challenges it presented almost daily.  I met incredible people, learned a great deal about myself, and grew to love each one of my students.  But deep down inside of me, I always knew I wanted to stay home with my children.  I never thought it would become possible, but our circumstances presented themselves in a way that made this desire come true.  So, as of August, I became a stay-at-home mom.   I must say, I have never worked harder in my life.  What was an 8 hr work day has turned into a 24 hr day, day-in and day-out.  I know I'm in for a life change, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Change #3
We are moving!  What began as, "lets put our house on the market and see what happens"... turned into, selling our home in less then 2 weeks!  Where are we moving you may ask?  Your guess is as good as ours.  As much as we desire a new home, we do not wish to rush into just any home.  Thankfully we have family in the area that will graciously allow us to "crash" until we find the perfect place for us. 

Change #4
My baby girl is growing!  Enjoy some pics over the past few months... 

I couldn't ask for a happier baby.  

2,3,4... yes i fell behind

So, I'm a little behind with posting! 

Here are the past few months...

2 Months

3 Months

4 Months