Some random facts about me; I hate to write. I can't spell. I never journal. So, why blog? Well, as many of you know or will soon come to know, my life has taken quite the turn in the past months. My heart is on the mends, although, will never be completely whole again. Therefore, I am constantly looking for ways to comfort this ache. Over these past months, reading other blogs exclaiming stories about life, death, random facts, daily encounters and simple pleasures, have somehow tended to my aching heart and have allowed me to experience small moments of joy. Blogging has allowed our world to capture a small (although sometimes quite large) glimpse into another ones life, creating a thrill that is addictive and slightly contagious! My blog will hopefully nurture that thrill in hopes to offer you a 'front row seat' into my journey through this crazy experience called, life. Life, in the essence of what gives, breaths and sustains. Maybe my blogging will one day attribute to caring for another ones aching heart.

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Meet Jude Anthony

It has taken 6 weeks for me to find the time, energy and words to put together Jude's birth story.  I had high hopes to blog and journal his first days as I did with Sydney, but exhaustion and reality set in, life with two is a game changer! To be honest,  I enjoyed just 'being' with my little family these past few weeks without trying to keep up and do everything the same way I did with Sydney.  I am learning to let things go and just 'be' because you have to in order to be the best kind of parent :)

I still desire to record the events of each of my children's day of birth, so this is how the events on May 15th, 2014 played out, as we welcomed our little man into our family...

I must review the days leading up to May 15th, I was 39 weeks pregnant with a due date of May 18th.  The weeks leading up to my due date my doctor had some concerns over the size of my baby, although never measuring ahead, she could feel that he was on the larger size.  She suggested an induction, and I welcomed the idea as I was just as eager to meet my little boy and to NOT be pregnant anymore.    At my 39wk appointment, my doctor ordered an induction for May 15th, but was thinking my body may start labor beforehand as I was already starting to progress.  Sure enough I started having on/off contractions Wednesday May 14th, but nothing was consistent or strong enough.  

First thing Thursday morning, May 15h, I called the hospital to confirm my induction.  To my dismay, the nurse said there were no open rooms for me and I was going to have to be bumped to Friday.  I was devastated.  I was still contracting on and off, but not strong enough and waiting another 24hrs seemed like an eternity to me at that point.  I immediately prayed and then cried, haha.  Well God heard my plea and an hour later, my doctor called and told me I was going to meet my son that day, she had opened a bed for me and told me to be at the hospital in an hour!  My doctor is one of the best.   I anxiously called Eric, who just left for work, to come home because we were going to have our baby.  I then called my parents, who were the 'on call' babysitters, who rushed over in time for Eric and I to leave for the hospital.  

Just before leaving for the hospital, ready to POP

By noon I was admitted, hooked up to monitors, dilating and contracting.  My doctor broke my water and I instantly began having stronger contractions. 

Picture taken right before the pain intensified, hence I was smiling.

 After some Pitocin, a much needed and welcomed Epidural and a few quick pushes, we welcomed Jude Anthony Bender into our world at 6:46pm!  Our BIG boy weighed in at 9lb 6oz and 21 1/2 inches long.  No wonder he had been giving his mama a back ache ;) 

We instantly fell in love with our little man.  He was perfect.  A head of hair, just like his sister, blue eyes, and features favoring the Bender side for sure.  He was here and we couldn't be happier.  

May 15, 2014

We love you Jude Anthony (after his Great Grandfather, Anthony Procaccino) Bender, and cannot wait to see the man you are going to become.